My 2018 Story- Aimme Zenker
Hey everyone! My dear friend Aimee is sharing the blog today! I met Aimee at Camp Yeshua the year of 2014! I just love this lady and have had the privledge of watching her grow up into a wonderful woman of God! Enjoy!
Hey there, peeps! For those who don’t know me, my name is Aimee Zenker. I am a full-time college student, worship leader, and a (newly developed) Oklahomian!
This year has been a year for change, to put it nicely. 2018 has been filled with much joy, it has been a year of growth for sure. This is my 2018 story, I hope that you enjoy!
At the beginning of the year, everything was smooth sailing, I didn’t have a worry or care. School was going well, my job was absolutely amazing, and I was still living in California at the time. I fully put all of my trust in God during this time. As the year went on, I started to misplace my trust and focus on the things of the world.
It was about April time when I stopped reading the Bible, and in May I stopped praying. I had bigger concerns with my future and overall success. It worked for a while, then everything started to fall apart.
My family had decided to make a huge move from California to Oklahoma. It was a very stressful time. I had to quit my job, leave my friends and some of my family, and give up everything that was known. During this time, my family began to grow apart. Every time one of us would talk to another it was in a rude, ill manner. I started to resent my parents and rebel. I lost complete faith in God.
It just so happened that right in the middle of all this was Camp Yeshua. For those of you who don’t know, Camp Yeshua is a youth camp in the middle of Oklahoma. I didn’t take long for me to restore my faith in God. The first night of worship, I had a breakdown. The Lord spoke to me and kept saying “everything is gonna be alright.” My faith continued to grow throughout the entire week.
When I got back to California, everything was great. I had put my trust in God again and didn’t have a worry or care. We finished everything up in California and drove to Oklahoma.
When we got to Oklahoma, everything was smooth sailing. I began to start leading worship at Hebraic Family Fellowship, and I also started college. College was quite an adjustment, however, I felt confident going into it.
In college, you are constantly surrounded by the things of the world. It all looked so pleasing and fun, so I started to give in. The more I got into it, the more I started to get recognized by people at my college. It felt good. Until I stopped putting my trust in God again. Then everything started to go crazy again. I slipped into a state of depression that I couldn’t get out of. I rebelled yet again by sneaking out and going to parties, and drinking, vaping, and surrounding myself with people that were not the best influences. Nothing felt right anymore, I felt like I didn’t belong in this world. I had suicidal thoughts, and it all got really bad. I had a time where I was constantly doubting God’s love for me, after all, who would love someone so damaged. However, I realized his love has no bounds. I started to invest myself in worship and changed my way of thinking.
God is always there and without him, everything seems to fall apart. I hope some of you learn from my experiences, and always remember God loves you.
There’s this bible verse that I always look to, to remember why to trust in him through everything.
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”
When you trust in God, it feels like nothing could possibly stop you. You are loved by God, and it’s really important to remember that. The ways of the world have a way of drawing you in, and while everything may seem fine and dandy, it’s not. Everything will fall apart and the only way to avoid it is to trust in God. He has a plan for each and every person.
Written by Olivia Mancini